I've been pretty bad with my blog lately. Sorry, I'm lazy....or more tired. All. the. time. Like, its 9:30 in the morning and I need my first nap kind of tired. Growing 2 babies is HARD work!
I feel kinda bad that I haven't really documented much of the pregnancy but its pretty monumental so I'm guessing it will be one of those things I'll never forget. I still remember at the weeeeeee-beginnings of my pregnancy. I'd mention I was having twins to another mother who had twins herself and they would just kinda give me this "you have no idea what's coming" kind of look. I get it now. I get it. I really get it. You never forget.
One thing I have noticed about pregnancy with twins is there really is a lot you could complain about. I'll try to stay positive but this might be a "I'm just keeping it real" kinda post. I don't mean to sound negative, really, and not looking for any sympathy at all....just telling it how it is.
Things started out pretty good until about 8 weeks when the jaws of hell decided to open and make me so sick I couldn't breathe, think of food, eat food, look at food, smell food, kinda of think of eating food, stand up, walk, go to the bathroom, leave my bedroom or care for my family...at all. I might be a tinge dramatic but honestly, I'd rather walk on hot coals or push pins than be that sick again. I told my husband if someone said they'd give me a million dollars to be that sick again. I'd refuse. I was spoiled my first 2 pregnancies with not being that sick or sick at all so it was a big surprise. Yes, you get sicker with twins. And maybe I'm a baby but it was hard for me. That lasted until about 19 weeks.
I had a solid 5 or 6 weeks of getting back into the swing of things. The bump was small and cute. My energy increased, I could sleep pretty good. I got to the gym, ran errands, played with the kids, cleaned my house, made dinner. Life was dandy. Then about 24 weeks we got a BIG scare with some premature labor stuff. My cervix thinned 100 percent in one week and I was starting to dialate. Doctor said "bed rest", I said "no way". Doctor said "take it easy" I said "okay" Little did I know that just weeks later I'd have no choice but to bum around all day. Babies grew and belly got bigger...and heavier. Way heavy. Carry around a huge watermelon all day kinda of heavy. Can't walk around the house or store kinda heavy. BUT! I'm hitting 30 weeks here and babies are IN! And feel like they will stay in for a solid month or more.
God is so good. I've had family, friends, church members and neighbors praying for me and my babies. I've had meals delivered, babysitters, cleaners coming by weekly, emails, phone calls, texts, letters and thoughtful conversations. The support is overwhelming. OVERWHELMING. I can't explain it completely but God has sent angels to me during the pregnancy to help me. Its jaw-dropping. I feel extremely blessed and my cup of gratitude runneth over....and over and over and over. I can't wait to pay it forward. I can't wait to bless others around me who have blessed me.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
As of today, life is good. Some one asked me yesterday, "How are you doing TODAY?" Not just the usually "How are you doing?" I had to laugh and say, "TODAY I am good." Its a day to day thing. I've been getting sick again, I have dizzy spells on a regular basis (low blood pressure...symptom of twins) Some days I feel like I eat all day and still hungry, other days I have not appetite. Some days the belly feels light, other days its pulls and itches and make my back hurt so bad I can't walk. Some days I want to punch everyone in the face that looks at me and other days I feel happy and care free. I'm actually surprised at how happy I have been.
Overall, we are so excited for this fun little journey of twins we are going to have. I get so nervous and so excited at the same time.
I'll keep everyone posted on what's coming next but wish us luck!